Nakaka-bore Bang Pag-Usapan si God?

May ibang tao pag si God na ang usapan parang na bu-bore na sila. Parang corny ang dating, yung tipong walang interest. Yung iba pilosopo pa. Actually di nakaka bore pag usapan si God. Nakakamangha nga Syang pag usapan actually, at kung pag aaralan mo yung salita Nya, kung kikilalanin mo lang talaga Sya, kung sino Sya at kung anong kaya Nyang gawin, you’ll stand in awe of Him.

Nabubore kang pag-usapan si God kasi may binubulong sa’yo , si satan, ayaw nya kasing malaman mo yung tungkol kay God, gusto kang iligaw ni satan para di mo malaman yung tunay na daan. Pero alam mo, di mo sya dapat pinapakinggan. Dahil si satan gagawin nya talaga lahat ng paraan para ilihis ka sa katotohanan, para di mo makilala ang tunay na Dyos.

God is awesome and powerful. He spoke everything into existence. He’s all-knowing, He’s loving, He’s just and He’s a wonderful God. He’s not like other gods. He perform miracle and He protect those who loves him, actually He’s so cool. He rocks! Walang superlative  adjective na makakapag describe kung gano sya ka powerful, kung gano sya kagaling.

Want to know more about Him?

Read your BIBLE.

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Desire to know God.

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God is looking for you. He wants to have a relationship with you. Don’t hide yourself from Him. He loves you.

 

 

Iningatang Mawala, Nawala Pa Rin

August 9, 2018

May tinago akong susi, susi ng cash box. Tinago ko kasi mahalaga sa akin, ayaw ko syang mawala at the same time, ayaw ko naman syang makita palagi kasi baka mamaya magipit ako at biglang nag ka “Sale” sa tabi tabi, eh magamit ko yung pera na itinabi ko don. Well, sa tinagal tagal, dami ng nangyari, nag impake kami, nag lipat ng bahay, nag ayos ulit ng gamit, nawala na sa isip ko kung saan ko na itabi yung susi ng cash box ko. At ngayong kailangan ko na sya, di ko na sya makita. Hinalughog ko na ang pinakamasukal na parte ng bahay namin, pero wala talaga.

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Yung kaya mo nga itinago para di mawala, pero sa tagal ng panahon nakalimutan mo kung saan mo itinago, kaya lalong nawala.

Then this scenario, reminds me of this verse…

For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it. (Matthew 16:25 NIV)

I want to save it but now I lose it. Wala na talaga, di ko na makita. It’s such a waste of time. Nakakapanghinayang. Analogy sa buhay ko, kung puro sarili ko lang yung mamahalaga sa akin, itatago ko yung talent ko, yung time ko ipagdadamot ko sa ibang tao, mabubuhay akong nakakulong, yung buhay na sobrang nakatago sa comfort zone, I will lose my purpose. Pero kung gagamitin ko yung life ko in purpose, in a way how God designed me, for His glory and honor. Life is more fulfilled and satisfying when you live out your purpose. Yung life na di ka lang nag-exist, wala ka man lang nadala kay Jesus, puro kulong lang sa kwarto, iwas sa tao. Yung life na may purpose at pag nawala ka na, naaalala ka pa rin kasi may naiwan kang legacy. Di nasasayang. Not unlike the key that I hid, now its gone.

Ginawa ka ni Lord for a purpose, use it so you will not lose it. Wag mo sanang hayaan na mawala, kasi sayang.

Want to know your purpose?

The Lord said “Call unto Me, and I will answer you, and I will show you great and mighty things which you do not know” Jeremiah 33:3

Don’t End Your Life, May Pag Asa pa

August 7, 2018

Hanggang kailan mo kayang magmahal? Kaya mo pa ba kahit nasasaktan ka na? Kaya mo pa ba kahit wala na yung spark ng feelings? Kaya mo pa ba kahit puro na lang sakit? kaya mo ba kahit di ka pinapansin? Kaya mo pa ba kahit yung konti na lang na sa’yo, isusubo mo na lang ibibigay mo pa? Kaya mo bang ipag palit yung buhay mo para sa kanya? Anong klaseng tao ang kayang mag mahal ng ganito, nakaya nyang ibuwis yung sarili nyang buhay para maging maayos yung sa’yo? Anong klaseng pagmamahal yung tinalikuran ka na ng buong mundo, pero Sya hinahabol ka parin, sinusuyo ka pa rin? Anong klaseng pagmamahal yung kahit na anong gulo ng buhay mo, iniayos nya, binigyan ka nya ng panibagong pag-asa, simula at buhay… walang makakagawa non kundi si Jesus lang.

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Binigay Nya yung buhay Nya, para mag karon ka ng sa’yo, pinasan Nya ang kasalanan na hindi sa kanya, para magkaron ng kapatawaran ang mga kasalanan natin sa kanyang Ama. Hanggang sa huling sandali ng buhay Nya, ikaw yung nasa isipan Nya, tapos nabuhay Syang muli para ipakita sa’yo na kahit kamatayan kaya Nyang tawirin, kaya Nyang talunin, at kung kakapit ka lang sa kanya at patuloy kang maniniwala sa mga ginawa Nya, kaya mo ring mapag tagumpayan yung mundo, kaya kung brokenhearted ka ngayon, at gusto mo nang magpakamatay sa sobrang sakit, isipin mo, na Mahal na Mahal ka Nya, namatay sya para sa’yo, huwag mong wakasan ang buhay mo. Di huli ang lahat kahit na pinagpalit ka, o nasaktan ka, niloko ka, pinagmukha kang tanga ng isang tao na di alam ang yong halaga. Dahil kay Jesus, mahalaga ka sobra at mahal na mahal ka nya. Kaya tahan na, huwag ka ng lumuha pa, para sa taong nagpaiyak sa’yo. Dahil ang taong yon ay di talaga para sa’yo. May nakatakda pa ra sa’yo at kung wawakasan mo na ang buhay mo para lang don sa di karapatdapat na tao, mag isip ka ulit, dahil kung wawakasan mo na ang buhay na binigay sa’yo, paano mo makikilala ang taong nakalaan para sa’yo?

Kung feeling mo walang nag mamahal sa’yo, mahal ka ni Jesus at iyon ang totoo. Please lang, huwag mong wakasan ang buhay mo… bumangon ka at mag umpisa ulit. Humugot ka ng lakas sa Panginoon na nangako na di ka iiwan o pababayaan.

And for those who are thinking of committing suicide dahil sa nabigo sila sa pag-ibig, nawalan ng pag-asa, napagod ng lumaban, i pray for comfort and the intervention of the Holy Spirit for you, I pray that you find the love in Jesus at huwag nyang pahintulutan na matuloy ang plan nyo to commit suicide. There’s hope, peace, joy and serenity in the presence of the Lord. And you find Him in the midst of what you’re going through right now. Kaya nyo yan, malalagpasan nyo yan. In Jesus mighty name. AMEN!

Lesson ng Paglalaba sa Dryer

July 19, 2018

Our second day sa inupahan namin na bahay sa Crewdson Ave. sa Chattanooga, Tennessee. Mas mura ang Airbnb kesa ang per night sa hotel. Maganda yung bahay na tinuluyan namin. Medyo may katandaan na pero na-maintain naman ng may ari. May anim na kwarto, may 3 comfort room na may shower at isang hiwalay na toilet. Kusina na kumpleto sa gamit, dinning area, living room, laundry area, may terrace sa itaas at porch pa.

Ang storya ko ay nag umpisa nung nakita kong nag lalaba si Pastor, sabi ko malabhan na nga rin yung mga damit ko para may maisuot ako for the next four days. Sa totoo lang di ko pa alam kung paano gamitin yung washer at dryer nila kasi iba yung model nya. Ayoko namang makasira, baka magmulta pa kami. So I saw Pastor doing his laundry, I asked him, “Pastor, pano po gamitin yan?” sabay turo sa machine “Madali lang, ilagay mo lang yung damit, then pindutin mo itong play button na ito”.

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Nung natapos na si Pastor, excited akong labhan na yung damit ko. So i opened the door, then put my dirty clothes and put the laundry pods. Then I followed pastor’s instruction. Nung umaandar na yung machine, yumakyat ako sa itaas, then after sometime later, bumaba ako at tiningnan ko yung nilalabhan ko. Binuksan ko yung machine, nagtataka ako kung bakit ang init ng damit ko, naisip ko sira ba yung machine? Napatingin ako sa isang machine na katabi ng dryer na parehas ng design, nakita ko yung wash, rinse and spin na option, mali palang machine yung ginagamit ko. All along, dryer pala ang ginagamit ko. Dali dali kong inilipat yung damit ko sa kabilang machine, buti na lang at pods yung sabon, hindi powder kung hindi pano na kaya yon. Buti na lang din at di natunaw yung plastic ng pods, at di kumalat yung sabon sa damit ko.

Natawa na lang ako sa pag kakamali ko. So anong natutunan ko sa experience na ito?

Wag Mag Assume

Di dapat ako nag assume na alam niya ang gusto kong gawin sa mga oras na iyon. Itinanong ko lang kung paano gumamit pero di ko naman sinabi ang purpose ko. Sinagot lang naman nya ang tanong ko. Maraming causes ng miscommunication yung di natin nililinaw yung pag tatanong natin, di ko nalinaw kay Pastor na gusto kong maglaba. And I am pointing at the dryer na ginagamit nya, akala nya rin gusto kong malaman kung pano gumamit ng dryer. Hahahaha

Magbabasa

Dahil dalawang mag kaparehas ng design ang magkatabing machine, dapat binasa ko. Napansin ko ang dami kong nagagawang palpak or di ko na nagagamit to the full capacity ang isang device kasi di ko binabasa ang manual. Madaming bagay na nakasulat lang pala, na sagot sa tanong mo. Tulad ng tanong ko, alin kaya ang washer dito? Dahil di ako nag basa, nag assume ako na yun ung unang machine. Ganon din sa life natin. Binigyan tayo ni Lord ng instruction sa life natin, hindi naman Nya tayo iniwanang clueless sa mga bagay bagay. Binigay nya sa atin ang BIBLE (Basic Instruction Before Living Earth) para mag-karon tayo ng life that overflows. Ilang phone na ba ang ginamit kong di ako nag basa ng manual? Then may special features pala na di ko na discover, or kung naghihingalo na or may napindot akong nag cause ng error saka ko lang bubuklatin yung manual para mag read ng troubleshooting, where in the first place dapat binasa ko muna para malaman ko ang proper handling para tumagal ang lifespan nya.

Grace is sufficient

Pag nagkamali, matutoto sa pag kakamali at mag move forward. Walang perfect na tao. Lahat tayo ay nagkakamali. Buti na lang, ang Panginoon ay ang Dyos ng awa at habag. He has abundant grace available for everyone. Basta humble  lang tayo na aminin yung pagkakamali natin, matuto tayo sa pagkakamali, gawin ang tama at wag nang bumalik sa dating gawi. For sure nung nalaman ko na kung alin sa mga machines, for sure di na ako maglalaba sa dryer.

Hopefully you’ve learned something from my blog. Please feel free to say what’s on your mind on the comment section.

Have a nice day everyone!

Bakit Ako Nagsusulat ng Blog

July 21, 2018

Bakit nga ba ako nagbablog? I am sure, lahat ng bagay dito sa mundo ay may dahilan, may purpose. Mas magandang gawin ang isang bagay ng may dahilan, kesa ginawa mo lang ito ng wala lang. Katulad ng bawat nilalang dito sa mundo, may reason ang ating existence. I don’t know kung anong purpose ng iba kung bakit sila nag susulat ng blogs, siguro they have same purpose katulad ko, but anyway gusto ko pa ring i-share yung nasa puso ko.At gusto kong isulat yung purpose ko, para pag pinanghihinaan na ako ng loob, pag medyo nadidiscourage ako, may babalikan ako na purpose.

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Nagsusulat ako kasi….

I love writing

Bata pa lang ako, mahilig na akong magsulat, nag umpisa akong mag sulat sa journal ko noong high school pa lang ako. Isinusulat ko don lahat ng thoughts, life lessons na natutunan ko sa bawat experiences ko, yung mga emotions na kahalo ng experiences. Yung mga deepest secrets ko, don ko nilalagay. Mahilig din akong sumulat ng short story at mga narrative kaya lang di ko pinagpatuloy ang pagsusulat kasi nareject yung unang gawa ko na pinasa ko sa “Precious Hearts Romance” pero napag tanto ko habang nag-mamature ako na okay lang pala ang rejections, di ko control yung magiging reactions ng iba, di ko control yung thoughts and feelings nila about my work, pero di ko dapat i-take na negative yun, bagkus ay dapat gawin ko yung encouragement para pag butihin ang sarili ko. “There is always room for improvements and growth.” Kadalasan naririnig ko yung quote na “You cannot control the actions of others, but you can control how you react. “ So yun, kaya ngayon bumalik ako sa pag susulat, kasi ito talaga ang itinitibok ng puso ko, at ito talaga ang gusto kong gawin. Kahit na ano pa man ang sabihin ng iba, ito ang gusto kong pag butihin. Kasi ito ang ibinigay ng Panginoon sa akin at ayaw gusto ko itong hasain at paghusayin para di naman masayang ang talent na ibinigay nya sa akin.

Sabi ni Zig Ziglar “You don’t have to be great to start, but you have to start to be great.”

Nainspire ako sa sinabi nya, at nag iba yung perspective ko. Dati akala ko dapat ay expert na akong magsulat para maging magaling sa larangan ng pagsusulat, pero dahil sa sinabi nya, di naman pala dapat maging expert muna ako, kailangan ko lang mag umpisang magsulat, at mag sanay ng magsanay sa pagsusulat hanggang maging mahusay ako. Kaya na inspire ako ngayon para sumulat ulit. Alam ko marami pa akong dapat matutunan, at open ako sa growth at kung may dapat man akong baguhin sa style or sa way nag pakikipag-communicate, I am willing to make those changes and improvements for the glory of God.

To Share Jesus and inspire others

Mapapansin mo, yung mga sinusulat ko is about Jesus. I am a Christian, at di ako nahihiyang sabihin na follower ako ni Jesus. I like telling people how He changed me and how He can do the same for you too. Naniniwala ako na ang isa sa mga purpose kaya ako andito is to tell the world of His love. To share the gospel of Jesus to others as it is written.

Matthew 28:18-20 King James Version (KJV)

18 And Jesus came and spake unto them, saying, All power is given unto me in heaven and in earth.19 Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost: 20 Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you: and, lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world. Amen.

High technology na tayo ngayon, at nakita kong magandang opportunity ang blogging to spread the good news of salvation. Gusto kong gamitin ang blog na ito para ikwento ang mga testimonies ko, yung walk ko kay Lord, kung gano kabuti ang Panginoon. Mahal tayo ng Dyos, kaya nga pinadala Nya si Jesus para iligtas tayo. Pero kakaunti pa lang ang nararating ng message na ito. Sabi nga sa bible “The harvest are plentiful but the laboreres are few.” Matthew 9:37 kaya dapat doble kayod tayo. At i-grab natin yung bawat opportunity as possible.

Risky oo, kasi maraming bansa ang di pa nararating ng gospel, yung ibang lugar pinipersecute talaga nila ang mga Christian doon. Naniniwala ako na may mga fellow believers din ako na may adhikaing ganito, at di ako nag-iisa sa gawaing ito. Kaya malakas ang loob ko, at alam ko rin na kasama ko si Lord kasi ipinangako Nya that He’ll be with me even unto the end of the world, kaya kung anuman yung mga negative effect, feedback ng ibang tao tungkol dito ay di ko na alintana, kung may isa man akong nainspire, nadala sa Panginoon sa pamamagitan ng Blog na ito, super saya ko na non kasi I served my purpose.

If you are a Christian Blogger with the same purpose, allie tayo dito. Laban natin to kasama ang Panginoon. At saludo ako sa’yo. Please e-mail me too, or send me a message para maisama kita sa prayer lists ko.

For the Future Reference “Advance mag-isip”

Makakalimutin ako, madali akong makalimot ng mga bagay bagay. Siguro pag tumanda ako, mas lalo na. Kaya habang fresh pa sa memory ko ang mga alaala, ang mga lessons na natutunan ko, gusto ko itong isulat. Para pag tanda, may mabasa ako at maalala. Syempre bawat ipinapublish ko dito sa WordPress ay dapat i-print ko, paano na lang kung makalimutan ko ang password ko dito, buti na yung may back up.

Sa future, pag wala na ako ano bang maiiwan ko sa mundong ito? Pwede yung mga naisulat ko sa blog ko ay maiwan pa rin, at mapakinabangan ng ibang tao. Kailangan daw kasi advance tayong mag-isip. Kung sa pag tanda ko at uugud ugud na ako, mas hi-tech na tayo non, uso na nga ngayon sa Amazon ang nag sasalitang speaker na si Alexa, ipapabasa ko na lang sa kanya ang blog ko kung di ko na makita ang mga letra nito. Hopefully kaya na nyang mag salita ng tagalog, at mag translate sa ibang wika tulad ng English at Spanish.

Sana maraming mainspire, matulungan, at matouch na lives ang blog na ito. About monetizing my blogs, gusto ko rin pero di lang kumita ng pera ang purpose ko dito. My purpose is far more beyond earning money, kasi may trabaho naman ako. Pero kung gagamitin ito ni Lord para i-bless ako, para makapag support sa ministry at global missions, why not? Sino ako para limitahan ang kapangyarihan ni Lord. Everything belongs to Him, I own nothing and I will not worry because God will supply all of my needs according to His richness and glory. He’s my provider kaya alam ko di Nya ako papabayaan.

Ang mga blogs ko ay isinulat ko na lang muna sa tagalog, sa lengwaheng alam at kabisado ng puso ko at alam ko na maraming Pilipino din ang nag hahanap sa Panginoon, kaya bago ang iba, bayan ko muna. Ayoko namang ihinto ang nasimulan ko na, ayokong madiscourage dahil lang sa mga limitations ko, kaya habang pinag bubuti ko ang grammar ko, tagalog muna ko. Ayoko rin naman kasing mag full English sa pag-susulat tapos mali naman pala yung grammar ko. Tapos sa halip na sa thought at sincerity sila nakatingin, ay di na sila maka focus kasi nakakatawa yung mga malimaling grammar diba? Di ko rin naman maidadahilan ang langauge para di ko ishare si Jesus. As long as naiintindihan ako ng mga readers, yung thoughts na gusto kong ipahayag, yung na touch yung life nila, nainspire sila at nag bago rin yung lives nila dahil nakilala nila ang Panginoon at mga mabubuti Nyang ginawa through my blogs, through my life, masaya na ako non.

For the Glory of God

Sa bawat sulat ko, gusto kong i-acknowledge ang Dyos sa lahat lahat ng ginawa nya. Kasi apart from the Lord, I can do nothing. The reason why I live is to give Him the highest praise and honor. Lahat ng meron ako, talento, trabaho, buong katauhan ko, lahat yan ay sa Panginoon, I cannot take all the credits kasi instrument lang ako. Empty vessel na ginagamit lang Nya. In every thing I do, gusto kong ibalik din lahat sa Kanya. At writting blogs, story how God helped me through out this years is a really WONDERFUL JOURNEY.

Please pray for me and with me, for this blog to be successful, alam ko di magiging madali. Pero by the grace of God, mailalaganap ang gospel through this. And may the Lord give us wisdom in all our dealings. If you are going through something, with the help of our Lord may you overcome those trials, because in Jesus we have victory. If you’re still seeking for the truth, may you know the truth and the truth will set you free. If you are sick, I pray that the Lord’s mighty hands heal you. If you’re struggling financially, I pray for prosperity and abundance for your life. Remember always that Jesus come so we might have life, and me may have it more abundantly. I pray as you read my story, the Holy Spirit speak to you, and you find the answers that you’re looking for. In Jesus, majestic name. Amen

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Yung Totoo Lang

Gusto ko yung mga taong totoo sa sarili nila. Yung marunong umamin ng pagkakamali, hindi nahihiyang aminin na hindi nila alam, yung hindi nagkukunwari. Bihira na lang makakita ng ganito, pero kahit naman siguro sino ay gusto ng totoong kaibigan. Yung di natatakot na sabihin sa’yo na may plato ka pala sa mukha, or may tinga ka. Yung tipong hindi ka ipapahiya or idya-judge. Parang ang sarap makasama ng tao na ganito. Yung pwede mong ikwento lahat lahat, kasi makikinig sya sa’yo. Pwede mong sabihini lahat kasi hindi ka nya huhusgahan, kung may mali sa’yo hindi nya itotolerate para lang i-please ka bagkus ay tutulungan ka nya, na maging maayos at tama yung mali mo. Yung i-encourage ka at maniniwa sa’yo na kaya mo.

 

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Gusto kong makasama at maging kaibigan ang ganitong klaseng tao, yung positive yung outlook sa buhay, yung di mo maramdaman yung competition, yung di lang lalapit sa’yo kasi may kailangan, or may benefits syang makukuha sa’yo. Yung tipong kahit di ka mag-salita alam nya at ramdam nya yung emotion mo, ramdam nya kung masaya ka, at makiki-celebrate sya sa kasayahan mo, ramdam nya kung malungkot ka o nagdadalamhati at makikiramay sya sa kapighatian mo.

Gusto mo rin bang magkaron ng kaibigang ganito? Or meron kang kaibigang ganito? Eto yung klase ng friendship, ng relationship na hinahanap ko. Yung ramdam mo secure ka, ramdam mo yung mahal ka. Pero sa panahon natin ngayon, may ganitong klaseng tao pa ba? Meron pa bang ganyang klase ng tao ngayon, na kung saan mas marami yung nagpapanggap kesa nagiging totoo? May mangilanngilan at ang hirap matagpuan. At kung makatagpo ka ng ganito, na-appreciate mo naman yung sincerity nya o dahil masyado syang mabait, inaabuso mo, ni-neneglect mo na lang kasi alam mo na mahal ka nya at di ka nya kayang iwan? Wala namang permanent sa mundo, at walang perfect na tao. Bawat isa sa atin ay may pangangailangan, at bihira ang ganito. What about isang tao na handang ibuwis para sa’yo ang buhay nya para maging maayos yung buhay mo? Shout out sa mga magulang na nagtatrabaho para mapag-aral yung mga anak nila at mabigyan ng maayos na buhay, at shout out sa mga anak na nakaka appreciate ng sacrifices ng mga parents nila. Katwiran ng ibang teenagers, di namin kailangan ng pera, kailangan namin ng attention at pagmamahal nila.

Well… don ko napagtatanto na kahit anong gawin mo, kahit anong ganda, talagang kulang at kulang pa rin yung ginagawa natin, kasi people always want more from us. Sa mga katangiang nabanggit ko, may kilala akong ganitong ganito. At gusto ko syang ipakilala sa inyo. Siguro kilala nyo na sya, o naririnig, yung iba may tanong na totoo ba?

Pero sa dinami dami ng friendship na fake, nakakita ako ng nag-iisang totoo, at yon ay ang friendship na natagpuan ko kay Jesus. Gusto kong ishare kung gaano kabuting kaibigan si Jesus, and I am hoping na maging kaibigan ka rin nya, kung di mo pa Sya kilala, or kung kilala mo na Sya pero dull ung friendship nyo, hope na mainspire ka at bumalik sa circle of friends nya, or kung okay naman yung friendship nyo, gusto ko ring malaman yung difference na nagawa Nya sa life mo.

I want you to know more about my friend, Jesus…

Jesus found me, nung nasa dilim ako, He brought me from darkness to light (acts 26:18) Lubog ako sa utang non, di okay ung relationship ko sa pamilya ko. Disappointed sa akin yung parents ko, nagresign pa ako sa work ko, adik pa ako sa computer games non. Wasak at walang direksyon ang life ko nung mga time na iyon. Para talaga akong nangangapa sa dilim. Pero don sa kadiliman, may isang ilaw na nagliliwanag, may isa akong kaibigan na nagpakilala sa akin tungkol kay Jesus. Nung una, di ako naniniwala, I kept searching kung totoo ba. I wonder kung kaya ba akong tanggapin ni Jesus sa dami daming kong pag kakamali at kasalanang nagawa. Sa dami kong kasinungalingan at taong nasaktan. Akala ko di ka pwedeng lumapit sa Kanya pag makasalanan ka… pero mali pala ang akala ko, pero sabi Nya, “I desire mercy and not sacrifice.’ For I did not come to call the righteous, but the sinners to repentance” Matthew 9:13. 

Pinatawad Nya ako sa mga kasalanan ko, kahit na nag kukumpisal ako sa pari, pakiramdam ko pa rin ay di ako lubusang pinatawad ng Panginoon, may tanong sa puso ko na gusto kong hanapan ng kasagutan. Paano ko ba malalaman na pinatawad na ako ng Panginoon pag dinasal ko ng paulit ulit ang mga sinasabi ng Pari? Paano kaya Nya nalalaman kung ilang “abaginoong maria at ama namin ang dadasalin ng isang tao”? dipende ba yon sa kasalanang nagawa mo? Pano naman yung mga mamamatay ng tao na gustong mag bago, ilang abaginoong maria at ama namin kaya ang ipapadasal sa kanya ng pari? Dinidiktahan ba ni Lord ang pari kung ilan ang dadasalin mo o gawa-gawaan lang ng pari yun? Daming tanong. Pero nalaman ko sa bible sa Acts 5:31 “Him (Jesus) God has exalted to His right hand to be Prince and Savior, to give repentance to Israel and forgiveness of sins” at isa pa sa nalaman ko ay di pala iyon sa mga mabubuti nating mga gawa kaya tayo maliligtas, so it doesn’t matter kung ilang paulit ulit na dasal ang gawin ko, kasi sabi sa Ephesians 2:8-9 For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it tis the gift of God, not of works, lest anyone should boast.”

Jesus is the Lamb of God that takes away the sin of the world (John 1:29)

He sets me free. He told me ” You shat know the truth and the truth shall make you free” (John 8:32) and “therefor if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed” (John 8:36) At ang sarap maging malaya, yung malaya kang maexpress yung nasa puso mo, ang sarap kasi pag malaya ka, wala kang takot. Gusto ko ang pakiramdam ng kalayaan. Dahil alam ko na napatawad na nya ang aking mga kasalanan. Gusto lang nya ay maging totoo tayo sa ating mga sarili, aminin ang ating mga pagkakasala, i-confess yung kasalanan natin don sa nagawan natin ng kasalanan, i confess natin kay Jesus na nagkasala tayo at sabi sa 1 John 1:8-9 If we say that we have no sin, we deceive outselves, and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. Basta aminin lang natin yung mga kasalanan natin, at wag nating idideny napaka faithful and just ni Jesus para patawarin tayo.

Si Jesus, ang kaibigan na ibinuwis ang buhay Nya para magkaron tayo ng buhay na walang hanggan, dahil mahal Nya tayo. Mahal Nya ako, mahal ka Nya, mahal Nya tayong lahat. At gusto Nya ring mag mahalan tayong lahat, sinabi Nya yon John 15:12-14 ” This is My commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends. You are My friends, if you do whatever I command you.” Kung iisipin mo, ganon ba ko kahalaga para pag buwisan ng buhay? Oo. Ganon tayo kamahal ni Lord. Ganon na lang ang pagmamahal ng Panginoong Dyos sa atin, kaya nga sabi sa bible “For God so love the world, He gave His only Begotten Son that whosoever believe in Him shall not perish but have an everlasting life” John 3:16. At ang ganitong klaseng friendship ang tini-treasure at talagang iniingatan. Dahil ang ibang friendship mong matatagpuan dito sa mundo, ay panandalian lamang, etong friendship na ito ay panghabang buhay.

Kung gusto mong maging kaibigan din ni Jesus, madali lang. Lumapit ka lang sa kanya, patuluyin mo sya sa puso mo, aminin mo ang mga kasalanan mo, at talikuran ang mga iyon, at maniwala ka na pinatawad ka na ni Jesus at mula sa araw na ito, na pinatuloy mo sya sa puso mo, ikaw ay panibago na. At sa pag talikod mo sa mga kasalanan mo, may panibagong buhay na nag hihintay sa’yo. Panibagong adventure. Di madali, pero lahat malalagpasan dahil ang kaibagan nating si Jesus ay di ka pababayaan.

Once na matagpuan mo na si Jesus, wag mo Syang pakakawalan.

Mga Pagbabago

I like changes. Kahit minsan, mahirap mag adjust sa mga pag babago, gusto ko pa ring mag bago. Change for the better, change para matuto at umunlad, change para umayos ang pamumuhay. Sabi ni Hiraclitus ” The only thing that is constant is change”

May mga pag babago sa buhay natin na madali lang, parang pag papalit lang ng damit o pagpapakulay ng buhok. Meron namang medyo mahirap at merong super hirap. Para sa akin, ang pinakamahirap na pag babago ay baguhin ang mindset ko, ang hirap para sa aking baguhin ang mga nakaugalian ko na at nakasanayan ko na, kaya lang, narealized ko na ang mundo ay patuloy nagbabago, kung hindi ko yayakapin ang mga pagbabagong nangyayari sa paligid ko, maiiwan ako.

Nung umalis ako sa Pilipinas, year 2011. Na-stock ako sa isla ng Samoa for seven years. Ang buhay namin sa isla ay mas madali kesa sa buhay namin sa Pinas, sa Pinas, gada kilos mo ay pera. Dapat mabilis kang kumilos, madilim pa lang dapat ay nakaalis ka na ng bahay kasi maiipit ka sa traffic pag nahuli ka, maingay mausok, pero kahit na ganon pa man sa Pinas, masaya ako sa bansang sinilangan ko. Doon kasi ay malaya akong maipapahayag ang sarili ko, sa wikang kabisado ng puso ko, malaya kong maipahayag ang damdamin ko, di katulad sa foreign land na na napuntahan ko. Nakaka nose bleed magalit at mag explain in English. Hahaha lalo na at di ka talaga sanay magalit sa salitang English. Well, dito naman as long as nadeliver mo yung thought at naintindihan ka ng kausap mo ay okay na sa kanila yon. Kasi naiintindihan naman nila na di yon yung first language ko.

Dati ay nag tataka ako kung bakit ako napadpad sa lugar na ito, pero naniniwala ako na dinala talaga ako ni Lord dito, at napakaraming nag bago sa akin buhat non.
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Mga Pag Babagong Nangyari sa Akin Sa Amerika Samoa.

Paniniwala at Pananampalataya

Unang unang nagbago sa akin sa lugar na ito ay ang aking Faith. May mga katanungan na sa puso ko nung umalis ako sa Pinas kung sino ba ang tunay na Dyos? At pinananalangin kong matagpuan Sya.

Sa dami raming pinaniniwalaan ng mga tao, ang dami raming iba’t ibang relihiyon, pero iisa lang ang tunay na at yon ang Dyos ni Abraham, Isaac at Jacob na sinasabi sa Bible. Ang nag iisang Dyos na gumawa ng Langit at lupa. Ang nag-iisang Panginoon na lumikha ng buong sanglibutan. Ibinigay Nya ang Kanyang Bugtong na anak na si Jesus sa atin dahil mahal nya tayo. At pag tinanggap natin si Jesus sa puso natin at naniwala tayo sa Kanya ay mag kakaron tayo ng buhay na walang hanggan sabi sa John 3:16.

John 3:16

16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

Isinusulat ko ito, not to imposed another religion, gusto ko lang i-share si Jesus at ang natagpuan kong katotohanan sa Kanya. Sa pag aaral ng bible, natutunan ko na sa mata ng Dyos ay walang matuwid. Lahat tayo ay makasalanan sa mata Nya.

Sabi sa Romans 3:10-12 English Standard Version (ESV)

10 as it is written:

“None is righteous, no, not one;
11     no one understands;
    no one seeks for God.
12 All have turned aside; together they have become worthless;
    no one does good,
    not even one.”

At ang kabayaran pala ng mga kasalanan ay kamatayan. Kamatayan at walang hanggang kaparusahan sa impyerno.
Romans 6:23
For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.
At ang tanging paraan lamang para tayo ay maligtas sa walang hanggang kaparusahan ay tanging sa Panginoong Hesus lamang.

Sabi nga sa Romans 10:9-10

9that if you confess with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. 10For with your heart you believe and are justified, and with your mouth you confess and are saved.…

September 30, 2012 Noong tinanggap ko si Jesus as my Lord and Savior at ang buhay ko ay nag iba talaga. Gusto ko lang i-share si Jesus, dahil sa Kanya may hope, may kapayapaan at kung tingin mo ay nawawalan ka na pag asa sa buhay, nais ko sanang ishare sa’yo ang hope na natagpuan ko sa kanya. Having a relationship with God is the best relationship that we can ever had.

Contentment at Simplicity ng Buhay

Sa buhay ko sa isla, natutunan kong makontento at mamuhay ng simple. Dati sa Maynila, pag kakasahod ko ay halos walang natitira sa akin kasi bili ako ng bili ng damit, sapatos, make up. Di ako nakakalabas dati ng wala akong make up. Bukod sa make up, isa sa mga pinag kakagastusan ko ay ang pag papastraight ng aking buhok, foot spa at facial. Malapit kami sa MegaMall noon, kaya ang libangan ko ay mag gala sa mall, mag window shopping, kumain sa kahit saan ko maibigan, tumingin ng mga bagong gadgets at dahil dalaga pa ako noon, talagang masasabi kong naging banidoso, materyoso at di ako marunong makuntento dati. I cared so much about myself, kung anong itsura ko, kung anong uso dapat meron din ako. But when God taught me an important lesson, nabatukan ako ni Lord, dinala Nya ako dito sa Lugar na ito at tinuruan Nya ako na mamuhay talaga ng simple. Di lang dahil walang mall dito, simple lang talaga ang buhay dito, di ko kailangang mag pa impress sa mata ng ibang tao. Kung paano ako tingnan ng tao ay di mahalaga, kundi kung paano ang puso ko sa mata ng Dyos. Yung iniingat ingatan ng mga pinoy na sasakyan sa pinas, dito sa Samoa, kabago bagong sasakyan may bangas agad, wala silang pakialam, wala silang pakialam sa itsura mo, di ka nila huhusgahan sa kung paano ka manamit pero sa puso sila nakatingin, kung paano ka makisama sa ibang tao.  Dito kahit wala kang ganong pera, mabubuhay ka pa rin kasi madaming taro, banana, bread fruit na napupulot lang sa tabi tabi. Isda, buko, papaya, sagana. Dito ko natutunang maging kontento at maging masaya sa kung anong meron ako, dito ko natutunang maging totoo sa sarili ko at mamuhay ng simple at mapayapa.

Natuto akong Magbigay

At ang pangatlong nagbago sa akin ay unti-unti akong natutong magbigay. Maramot ako sa totoo lang, hirap sa aking magbigay. Nag papahiram ako pero di ako nag bibigay. Pero dahil naranasan kong mawalan at magipit, at maraming mga tao ang tumulong sa akin kahit na maramot ako dati, eventually natutunan ko ring mag bigay. Naisip ko ang kabutihan ng Dyos sa pag bibigay, Sya nga ibinigay Nya yung bugtong na anak Nya para mag karoon ako ng buhay na walang hanggan, ako pa kaya na tao lamang? Binigyan ako ni Lord ng isa pang chance na mag bagong buhay, at lahat ng ito ay di mangyayari kung hindi sa kabutihan ng Panginoon.

Ilan lamang ito sa mga pagbabagong nangyari sa akin dito sa Isla. Naisip ko kung di ako dinala ni Lord dito sa lugar na ito, ano kaya ang nangyari sa akin? Nasaan kaya ako ngayon? Anong klaseng tao na kaya ako? Minsan dinadala tayo ng Panginoon sa isang lugar or situation para may matutunan tayo. Pero mostly tayo mismo ang nag dadala sa sarili natin sa sitwasyon dahil yung gusto natin yung masusunod, at pag di naging maganda yung kinalabasan ng ating sitwasyon, saka pa lamang tayo tatawag sa Panginoon, Or tinuturuan tayo ng importanteng life lessons pero sa lahat ng mga pangyayari sa buhay ng isang tao, parati Syang andon. Nananatiling tapat sa mga pangako Nya.

Nagpapasalamat ako sa bawat pagbabagong nangyayari sa buhay ko, sa mga life lessons na tinuturo sa akin ng Panginoon. Sa bawat pag subok sa buhay na dumating na nalagpasan namin mag asawa at sa mga darating pa. Naniniwala ako na ang mga pagsubok na iyon ay magpapatatag sa ating pananampalataya sa Panginoon. At kung ikaw man ay dumadaan sa pagsubok ngayon, I pray that the Lord will see and guide you through. May He strengthens you and may you find hope in Jesus.May you find His light in the darkness and give you peace in the midst of difficult situations. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.

The Anchor of My Soul

June 18, 2018

Reflection:

Yesterday, we celebrated Father’s Day at the Church. It’s sad, though because neither my son, Ezekiel nor my husband, Michael was with me during this special occasion. Ezekiel, asked me if he could stay with his grandma, while Michael was still in the middle of the ocean. I don’t know when he’s coming back. So instead of meditating on things that I don’t have I just concentrate on Pastor’s sermon. This was about the anchor of the soul. And the word was found in Hebrews 6:13-20.  God’s promise to Abraham. He said “Surely blessing, I will bless you and multiplying I will multiply you.” And so, after he had patiently endured, he obtained the promise.

“Who is the anchor of your soul? Where are you putting your trust?” Pastor asked, and these questions lead me to this blog.

Where am I putting my trust? Is it on my job? Is it on money? Is it on my sponsor, my husband? my son? religion? As I search deep with in my soul, the Lord reminded me that I cannot put my trust to anybody or anything except Him. He reminded me during those times that I pursue riches and how He made me realized that those things fade away. Gathering material things, power or fame are like gathering sand with your bare hands, that no matter how you hold on to it, it will just slip through your fingers. The more you gather, the more you lose and the more you’re exerting effort to it, the more you’re getting tired but gather only a little. And I remember how many people I’ve hurt before during that pursuit, how many precious time I lose and at the end I ended up to nothing.

Mark 10:24

But Jesus answered again and said to them, “Children, how hard it is for those who trust in riches to enter the kingdom of God”

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It’s not bad to have riches, it’s not bad to have big dreams, and all the material things, remember King David, he has riches, power and fame but he’s didn’t put his trust to either one of these things. And the bible said that he’s the man after God’s heart. God even gave us the power to create wealth ( Deuteronomy 8). Jesus came so that we might have life and have it more abundantly (John 10:10)

There are a lot of people in our society today, they put their trust in their money, in their power, authority, most of them put trust to people, and other things, sometimes, those things becomes an idol to them, they put those things first and forgot about God, who gave them power, wealth and fame. A lot of people are becoming prideful and trusting themselves too much, thinking that they are now on top because of their own knowledge and strength. I know this because I’ve been there, I was one of these people who will do anything just to get to the top, but I thank God, for His mercy and by His grace, He set me free from that bondage. God made me realized that without Him I can do nothing, and everything that I pursue without Him are nothing.

I want to share these words from Matthew. These words from the Lord, gives me light, hope and sense of security. These words are powerful because it was spoken by the living God. It created great impact and give me a new perspective in life.

Matthew 6:19-21

Lay Up Treasures in Heaven

19 “Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust[a] destroy and where thieves break in and steal, 20 but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

Matthew 6:24-33

24 “No one can serve two masters, for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and money.[a]

Do Not Be Anxious

25 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?[b] 28 And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, 29 yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.

Before, I used to worried to much about my job, about the money that I need to earn and to save for the future. And these words from the bible gave me serenity, peace and joy that the Lord will always provides for my needs. And as the Lord slowly changing me, He’s changing my situations. Knowing that God gave His only begotten Son Jesus for the forgiveness of my sins, I believe I can ask of God anything that is according to His will of course and it shall be given unto me as He promised. And when God promised somethings, I am one hundred and one percent sure that He’ll do it because His words never changes, His words are true and He cannot lie. I found hope in Jesus and he is the anchor of my soul. In Him, I put my trust and I will never let go.

I pray for the Holy Spirit of the Lord reveals to you His perfect will. May the Lord reveals Himself to you, keep you and protect you. May Jesus be the anchor of your soul too and found yourself in His light. If you’re in the darkest situation right now, I pray that Jesus’ light come upon you. If you’re in need of financial provision, I pray that Lord God, our Jehovah Jireh be your provider. I speak blessings, promotions, and provisions. I speak revival and deliverance! And may the peace of the Lord guard your heart. In Jesus Name I pray! Amen

 

 

April

pexels-photo-974198.jpegApril is not yet finished but there are lots of things happened already.

First week of April, me and Ezekiel were at the hospital. His wound got infected, his leg was swelling and he was admitted at the hospital for four days. I was touched by those wonderful people who visited us while we we’re at the hospital and those who sent us lovely messages and those who prayed for healing.

Second week of April, my husband came. Just right timing for our son’s third birthday. We celebrated at the old house with our family. Ninong Percy, my cousin Shirley and my auntie Santa. Our things were already packed. We about to move to another place.

Third week of April, we’re in a new place. It was raining when we moved out from our old apartment. And I believe, this is the place where God took me, because He has plans. I don’t know yet but I believe it’s going to be exciting.

Forth week of April, inventory deadline at work. Our inventory team need to reorganize the warehouse and our deadline is on April 30th. If I’ll look at the situation, it’s impossible, but looking with the eyes of faith, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. (Philippians 4:13)

It’s been quite a while since I posted on my blog. It’s hard for me to share my thoughts sometimes, sometimes I cannot find time to write, sometimes it’s the negative thoughts that hinders me from writing, thoughts of what ifs. But then the Lord, reminded me why I am doing this, and for whom am I doing this? It’s not for my own glory or fame, but the credits are to the Lord. How His faithfulness unfolds into my life. How He’s working in me. How the Lord keeps his promises to me. The God who created this whole universe is alive! He is powerful and Almighty. If He can do such miracle in to my life, He can also do it to you.

I am writing and posting this open journal, because I want to tell the whole world how great is our God. To share the lessons that the Lord has taught me, and the lessons that He’s about to teach me. To testify that the promises of God never fails and His love endures forever. And I am hoping and praying that in my simple blog post, it can touch your life, inspire you to believe that God is alive and He can do miracles, He can change every situations and He’s in control. I want to break the bondage of the devil that hinders me to write because I am not a journalist, I am not good in English/grammar, it’s not my line of expertise or whatever lies he want to puts in my brain, negative thoughts that hindering me to share the goodness of the Lord. I believe that if the Lord calls you to do something for His glory and honor, He will enables you, He will equip you, and give you the wisdom to do it.

If you’re still hesitant, cast those negative thoughts away. Because we can do all things through Christ who gives strength (Philippians 4:13)

Isaiah 41:10 New International Version

10 So do not fear, for I am with you;
    do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
    I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

 

God loves you and He wants the best for you.

 

PS. Jesus loves you.

 

My Old Self

FLASHBACK: MY OLD SELF

Looking back, before I knew Jesus, the meaning of life for me was different. I came from a simple middle class family. We’re not poor, we’re not rich either. Ever since I was a child I have this dream of becoming rich; I want to have a big mansion with my family, cars, and I really to be a millionaire someday. I thought that if I will have all the riches in the world, I’ll be happy.  You’ll have a lot of friends, you can go anywhere in the world, you can buy anything that you want, all the latest model of phone, technology and you’ll have power. People will treat you differently if you have money. That’s why I study, finish my college even if I didn’t like my course, I don’t like BS Entrepreneurship but since I thought I don’t have any choice I’ll just grab the opportunity, and if I cannot be employed, I’ll just create employment opportunity. At the early age, I enter into business, selling from pad paper, to tissue, to cosmetics, to apparel. Save money as much as I could. I can say that money was my motivation during those times. I became proud, arrogant, materialistic and workaholic. My ex-boyfriend was one of my business partners. But then it was not a good idea. I won’t tell why. During my college years, I thought that I’m the wealthiest college student on that State University. Relying on my own strength, on my own knowledge, were my ways before.

It didn’t even come to my thoughts that the Lord already planned His actions to reveal to me who He truly is. He let me with my old ways, he just let me work my own way. When I got my job, I became worst. I became more prideful because I was earning more than my dad, and I was the one who’s supporting our youngest sibling’s high school tuition that time. I became boastful, disrespectful towards my dad, and it added up more pressure to him because during those times he didn’t have a job. He made an unwise decision that made him lost his job abroad.  Out of four kids, I can say that I was the most hard headed, hard hearten and the only revel in the family. I learned how to drink liquor and be with the wrong crowd, I got addicted but not on drugs, but on online gaming.

Worse came to worst when I got my credit cards. At first I enjoyed using them because I can get what I want in an instant, and pay later. Little did I know that I was hooked by those credit cards with all the perks and freebies that I can get? It’s like me digging a pit and didn’t know that I was digging a pit for myself. Then one day, I woke up that I was in terrible debt. I thought I was having a nightmare but it was real. My paycheck was no longer enough with all the bills that I need to pay. I can no longer pay for my mortgage so I need to give up the house that we just acquire from Pag-Ibig. I tried hiding my situation to my mom because I knew she’ll get terribly disappointed in me when she found out that I was broke and I had a lot of credit card debts to pay for. So what I did was loaned from a bank, and put myself more in trouble.

I felt depressed, I was so stress, and I wasn’t able to sleep at night about this. Still trying to make it on my own, trying to escape the haunting thoughts, I shifted my thinking on online gaming, and became addicted to it. I lost a lot of weight that time. Every body’s asking what my secret of losing weight is, I just told them problems.

When I can no longer stand the stress, I burst out and cry to my mom. And of course, she was so mad. Ironically speaking, when I was mad with my dad, I didn’t realize that I did the same mistake that my dad did. And my mom was so disappointed. Then there came my dad, telling me “It’s okay, you’re still alive. We have hope as long as we live. Sometimes, we made wrong decisions in life, its okay. Just do your best and get up.” Tears burst down from my eyes.

It’s really a humbling moment for me. Then, I felt the emptiness inside of me. My heart is so empty. I wonder what can fill up the emptiness. Those people who I thought were my friends, left me. And when everything fell apart, when you don’t know where to turn to, that’s the time when I thought of God. When people have problems, I saw them in churches and crying to God. Then the search for Truth began, I’ve been to different churches in the Philippines, Antipolo Church, Kamay ni Hesus, Peñafrancia in Bicol, Groto in Baguio just to name a few but I couldn’t found Him there.

During those moments when God took away everything that I valued, I realized that money was not everything. When you ran out of it, those people who’ll stay should be valued. There is more to life that the pursuit of making money and it only lead to temporary happiness. He’s not yet done removing all the material things I possess, He also sent me in an island where there are no malls, away from the city life that I grew up with, and surround by lots of churches. He sent me in a foreign land, on the end of the Earth literally, far from my family and love ones. I don’t know His plan but since I was drowning in debt, my choices became few.

My auntie who’s in the island of American Samoa, gave me an opportunity and I just grab it rather than to go elsewhere. So I left my city life, I gave up my job, I left my ex-boyfriend (it’s hard for me because I wasn’t sure if he’ll be stay loyal to me… we’ve been 8 years in relationship and we didn’t know if long distance relationship will work. ) a lot of things that I gave up. Well…I cannot point fingers to anyone because after all, I was my entire fault.

With some few dollars on my pocket and almost negative three hundred thousand pesos in debt, I promised to myself that I will get back up again

In my hopeless situation, I found hope in the loving hands of God through Christ Jesus. That Jesus life, death and resurrection is the proof of God’s love towards men. That He gave His life for me so that my sins will be forgiven. It’s far more than a religion but a deeper and more intimate relationship with Him.

If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. (Romans 10:9)

It’s not about what I did, but it’s about the grace of God towards me.

For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith–and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God–Ephesians 2:8

September 30, 2012 I made Jesus as my Lord and Savior, repent of my sins and promised to Him from that day, I will never go back from my old self ever again. He taught me that I can only serve one master, God or mammon, and I chose the former than the later. He gave me wisdom that the love of money is the root of all evil. Money is a need but I should not be valued more than God, relationship and a lot of things money cannot buy.

My problems didn’t disappear immediately when I received Jesus, but I had this unspeakable joy and peace in my heart in the midst of trials and hardship. Knowing that God is with me and He has plans for me, not to harm me but to give me hope and the future.

After the entire long search, I found God in this island of American Samoa. Little by little, after three long years, I paid off my debts. He set me free from debt and addiction from online gaming. A lot of things happened that I never thought off, my ex-boyfriend didn’t became my husband, instead I found the man that God gave me here in the island, and gave us an angel. And life has never been the same.
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here! 2 Cor. 5:17

Hope my story inspires you, and if you are in the difficult situation right now, God wants you to know that you are not alone, that He loves you just the way you are and He’s willing to help and forgive you. There is hope in Jesus and He is the only one who can fill that empty space in your heart. Just be humble enough to come to Him “God, I cannot do this on my own. I need You. Please show me Your way.” My prayer for you is that may you find your way towards Him and find rest in Him in Jesus name!

To God be the glory!

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